Messy Love

"Lord, your love is perfect; Especially when it seems like it is not".

This is what I wrote in my journal earlier today, after waking from a nap and feeling burdened and heavy about it being a holiday and desiring my own family (just keeping it real, I have my moments).

Can I share with you something I have learned personally about God's love; it's Messy. Yes I said it,it was  not a typo, lol! What I mean is that out of my life relationship with God, the most beautiful moments that I have experienced in relationship with Him has been birthed out of hot mess situations (undesirable, unpopular, lonely, seemingly dry, or consequences from our bad decisions)!

I can explain it best like this: Imagine, there is this well known Chief artist and He is preparing to premier His best art piece ever. Everyone is talking about it. Some are skeptical, some are excited, and some don't know what to expect. It is clear that this chief artist is SO excited about His premiere piece of artwork. He has put his blood, sweat, tears and heart into it. He makes it perfect not missing one stroke or painting. So here goes the public viewing and you are the star guest. The unveiling is about to take place, many have gathered to seen (some because they genually want to know and others just to see what the hype is all about). The chief artist comes in and greets everyone, He introduces his premiere piece and asks you to do the honors of unveiling this most precious artwork!!! Once it is unveiled,  It is quiet in the room some are looking in astonishment, others look disgusted and turn there nose up, then yet others are confused as to what it is or means! The chief artist asks you what you think, you don't want to hurt His feelings because He is so excited and overwhelmed with joy! To you, the premiere piece looks....... Messy. To you it has so many imperfections and things seem to be all over the place! The artist can see from your facial expression exactly how you feel, then He grabs your hand and says, " My love, let me explain. This is my most beautiful prized possession. I put my blood, sweat and tears into this. This is my LOVE for you and it is my MASTERpiece"!

If you can tell, the chief artist is God and we are His special guest He asked to do the unveiling. The painting is His love for us. See, the world has given us a shallow, easy and even selfish view of love. This is not Love though. A lot of the things we experience in life may seem a hot steamy mess and the way We see our lives is in the world's eye, so we try to deny it or even look at it in disgust. It may look messy and far from perfect to us. Although His love is perfect, when we are in the midst of trial or test it may not feel or look perfect because WE are not perfect. Only God and His love is.

 Stop trying to be perfect for the world, the world will never be satisfied. Receive God's "messy" Love, which is perfect through His eyes! Let's ask Him to show us our lives through His eyes! It will look completely different! <3

Single Season- All the Glory Belongs to God!

Matthew 5:13-16 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot. “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. "








This is the 3rd installment of the Single Season blog. I felt compelled to complete it before the end of the year. This scripture says it all. You may wonder, what does this have to do with the single season? A LOT!







Sometimes our desire to be married can become an idol if we are not careful and in our single season, we are so worried about when or if we will ever get married, that we don't maximize all that God has for us in this season. One of my biggest breakthroughs this year is reaching contentment. Of course the desire is still there and I actually look forward to being married, but it's no longer on the forefront of my mind. I now realize that I must give my all in EVERY season!





The reason for this scripture in this post is that it is a reminder to us that God has an assignment for us right now. He loves us SO much! Could you imagine our Father, trying to get our attention and show us all these wonderful things that he desires to do in and through our lives and here we are staring at one situation we want to change and missing out on all the other great things he has given us now!





We are the light of the world and the salt of the earth, people need what you have! There are souls to be saved, sicknesses to be healed, children to be raised, families to be set free, books to be written, businesses to be started, we could go on and on.

People are indeed watching us and not everybody is going to step up in a church to get saved. We are the church and God has called us to let our light shine in dark places! He called us out of darkness and into His wonderful light, so that others could receive that light too!

Brothers and sisters, I am here to tell you:

IT IS TIME TO SHINE!!!

Be encouraged and know that Almighty has not forgotten you. He promises when we Seek first His Kingdom and Righteousness that All these things shall be added unto us. He promises no good thing will he withhold from those whose walk is uprightly, He promises that you will not suffer shame, nor will you be humiliated! I am praying for you dear heart and I love you, but Jesus loves you SO much more!

God bless and Happy New Year!

(If you did not read the other posts on single season click here: Part 1 and Part 2 )

God has a plan!

I don't believe in coincidences anymore. I truly believe that everywhere we go, the people we meet, the things we witness are all a part of God's plan for our lives. Even when we were doing things that we were not supposed to do, He knew that we would do it before we even did it.


Something I LOVE to do is dance for Jesus! I feel that I could do it all day and night, it's such a blessing that GOD has given us the dance as one way to worship Him in Spirit and in Truth! However, there is a great lesson the Lord has taught me about gifts that He has given us and ministry that He has called us to: we cannot be complacent or get comfortable!


I'll use myself as an example, I remember when God had made it clear to me that I was called to the dance ministry and this is what He wanted me to do. Well, I went full force with studying about it, doing it, learning and sharing with others on it! The I heard that still small voice say, "I want you to sing for me"! I thought, "sing, but I thought you wanted me to dance". He said, "yes, but I want you to sing as well".


One thing about GOD is that when He speaks, if we don't act right away it does not go away! He will send others confirming what He has told us! He did just that for me.


At first I was like, "what in the world! Sing, I only have a choir voice!" Then I had to kindly be reminded that it is not about me, and I just needed to get over myself. It's not about performing, getting hand claps and accolades (this is not to say it's bad to be recognized or honored), but we can't let this be our motive. And I thought since worshipping the Lord through song was something I did not do as well compared to others, that He would never ask me to do it in front of others. Boy was I wrong!

Don't allow yourself to get "stuck" or "limited" by what you do now by putting yourself in a special box. "I'm a preacher, I'm a prophet, I'm a dancer, I'm a Worship leader, etc.". I believe the Lord wants us to say, "Lord, I will be whoever you want me to be, whenever you want me to be". God maybe requiring more in your life. If He is, trust Him. He is the one that wrote out His plan for your life before you were even born and has given you grace to complete that purpose!

Do you Trust Him? - Barriers of living a lifestyle of Worship

David, was truly a man after God's own heart! Have you read Psalm 20 lately?

Psalm 20

1 May the LORD answer you in the day of trouble; May the name of the God of Jacob defend you; 2 May He send you help from the sanctuary, And strengthen you out of Zion; 3 May He remember all your offerings, And accept your burnt sacrifice. Selah 4 May He grant you according to your heart’s desire, And fulfill all your purpose. 5 We will rejoice in your salvation, And in the name of our God we will set up our banners! May the LORD fulfill all your petitions. 6 Now I know that the LORD saves His anointed; He will answer him from His holy heaven; With the saving strength of His right hand. 7 Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; But we will remember the name of the LORD our God. 8 They have bowed down and fallen; But we have risen and stand upright. 9 Save, LORD! May the King answer us when we call.

This Psalm was written right before David was about to go into yet another battle! I really admire David and I think He was a living testimony of God's grace, mercy, forgiveness and love. Verses 1-5 were the people supporting him and praying for prior to him going into battle. Verses 6-8 are David's response and what he recalls to know about the Lord. Although he had plenty of resources, weapons, horses and so on that he could have been focused on winning the battle with, but what does David say his greatest source is? "Some trust in Chariots and some in Horses, but WE trust in the name of the Lord our God".

David clearly trusted God, and I truly believe this is why he wasso successful as the King!

If you have an area of your life that you are having trouble trusting the Lord, meditate on this chapter. If David can trust Him in a physical battle and come through victorious, you can to!

Jesus- The way out!

Praise the Lord brothers and sisters in Christ and future siblings in the Kingdom!!!

I want to share with you all a fresh revelation the Lord gave me this week. This past month or so has been really difficult for me. I was not myself, I was feeling down, shameful, disappointed and even sorry for myself. Now we know these feelings are not from our Father God! Now, there is a season for mourning, the bible tells us that, even if its for a day, week or some months. God understands sometimes we need to vent and all. However, if all we do is feel sorry for ourselves and get upset, this is a distraction and it will hold us back from where God is trying to lead us. I refuse to be like the children of Israel, who were headed to the promised land and because of their murmuring, complaining and lack of faith; it took them 40 years to make a 11 day trip. NO THANKS, I cannot let this be me. I don't want this to be you either!

This week at work, I was sitting at my desk and began to think of my life over the past few years . I begin to murmur and complain and "woe is me" type of thoughts. So much that I began to cry at my desk, I mean tears streaming! I ran to the bathroom fell on my knees and began to cry out to God: "Lord, I refuse to live my life in frustration and unfullfillment". "I need your help Lord, please tell me what to dooooo!" As I was sobbing in the company bathroom, Holy Spirit dropped in my mind 1 Corinthians 10:13:

"No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it."

So, I began crying even more: "Lord, tell me, show me my way out. Even if it's just one word, I NEED YOU". Then in that still small voice with so much peace I heard: "Jesus"! That's it, Jesus is my way out and He is yours too! You know how sometimes we know something or someone so well that if we are not careful it looses its significance or impact to us?!

Why would we feel sorry for ourselves when Jesus loves us so much that He died just for you and just for me! He thought of you, when He was on that cross. Do you know what that means? Is there any greater love than this?

Self-Pity, insecurity, depression and so on are traps of the devil. When we really think about Jesus, dying on the cross for our sins, if it were not for Him we would either be wallowing in our sin or dead!! He came that we might have life and have it to the abundance! HALLELUJAH. Not only did He die for us, but He got out of the grave with all power in His hands and is now our intercessor, standing at the right hand of the Mighty Father! Who better to have as our prayer partner and intercessor than Jesus Christ? I'm getting so excited, that when I finish typing this. I'm gonna run around this house!!! I'm still not done, not only did He die for us and is our chief intercessor, because of Him we are heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ!!

I could go on and on, but know that Jesus is the way and the only way! Because of him we can be free and have liberty, but we have to receive it. We don't have to be in bondage of anything (i.e debt, sickness, generational curses, past hurts/mistakes, etc.).

This year one of my personal goals is to learn more about the cross and what it means for me. I encourage you to do the same. God has a plan for us all and He has given us gifts and talents to use for His glory. Don't let your gifts be buried because your focusing on the have nots and wants and when he's going to do this or that. I truly believe our blessings are in our purpose, so start moving forward. I know I am! And I don't want to do it by myself, that's not as fun ;-). I want you to join me. Let's use those gifts our Father has freely given us and give it back to Him by using them for HIS glory!!

As Bro. Dave Ramsey says, " This is the year to be weird and do accomplish or at least begin accomplishing those things we have been Talking about for years"!

Love y'all!


****SPECIAL UPDATE: The Praise and Worship Him blog has some exciting things coming up. Starting March 2011. There will be at least 2 posts a month, one being a video. There will be some mighty men and women of God featured on the blog and I am SO excited to see what they have to share with us! Stay tuned :)