Messy Love

"Lord, your love is perfect; Especially when it seems like it is not".

This is what I wrote in my journal earlier today, after waking from a nap and feeling burdened and heavy about it being a holiday and desiring my own family (just keeping it real, I have my moments).

Can I share with you something I have learned personally about God's love; it's Messy. Yes I said it,it was  not a typo, lol! What I mean is that out of my life relationship with God, the most beautiful moments that I have experienced in relationship with Him has been birthed out of hot mess situations (undesirable, unpopular, lonely, seemingly dry, or consequences from our bad decisions)!

I can explain it best like this: Imagine, there is this well known Chief artist and He is preparing to premier His best art piece ever. Everyone is talking about it. Some are skeptical, some are excited, and some don't know what to expect. It is clear that this chief artist is SO excited about His premiere piece of artwork. He has put his blood, sweat, tears and heart into it. He makes it perfect not missing one stroke or painting. So here goes the public viewing and you are the star guest. The unveiling is about to take place, many have gathered to seen (some because they genually want to know and others just to see what the hype is all about). The chief artist comes in and greets everyone, He introduces his premiere piece and asks you to do the honors of unveiling this most precious artwork!!! Once it is unveiled,  It is quiet in the room some are looking in astonishment, others look disgusted and turn there nose up, then yet others are confused as to what it is or means! The chief artist asks you what you think, you don't want to hurt His feelings because He is so excited and overwhelmed with joy! To you, the premiere piece looks....... Messy. To you it has so many imperfections and things seem to be all over the place! The artist can see from your facial expression exactly how you feel, then He grabs your hand and says, " My love, let me explain. This is my most beautiful prized possession. I put my blood, sweat and tears into this. This is my LOVE for you and it is my MASTERpiece"!

If you can tell, the chief artist is God and we are His special guest He asked to do the unveiling. The painting is His love for us. See, the world has given us a shallow, easy and even selfish view of love. This is not Love though. A lot of the things we experience in life may seem a hot steamy mess and the way We see our lives is in the world's eye, so we try to deny it or even look at it in disgust. It may look messy and far from perfect to us. Although His love is perfect, when we are in the midst of trial or test it may not feel or look perfect because WE are not perfect. Only God and His love is.

 Stop trying to be perfect for the world, the world will never be satisfied. Receive God's "messy" Love, which is perfect through His eyes! Let's ask Him to show us our lives through His eyes! It will look completely different! <3

A Heart Check!

Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding. Proverbs 4:7

Did you know that we can do something honorable and “good” and it NOT be pleasing to God? We can outwardly be doing what is right, but our hearts are hard and un-reverant (if this is eve a word? J). Seriously though, Don’t take my word for it; take HIS word! I was in the bathroom dancing, excited about a Sexual Purity event coming up and the Lord said so clearly; “Remember, you are not just sexually pure so that you can “gets you a man” or for my brothers “get you a fine boo”. What He was saying is, check your heart motive. If we are just doing this and our only intention is to get something out of it for us we have MISSED IT. Obedience is more than just doing what we are told to do; but Obedience is doing what God tells us to do in the way He told us to do it. I know you may be like, DAG, well at LEAST I'm doing what He told me to DO!!! But, Only wisdom could tell us this. He wants us to go deeper than surface.

I want to share this true story with you:

In 1 Samuel 15 we learn about specific instructions that the Lord gave to Saul, the king of Israel, to attack the Amalekites for evil they did to Israel. In verse 3, Saul is specifically told: “Now go, attack the Amalekites and totally destroy all that belongs to them. Do not spare them; put to death men and women, children and infants, cattle and sheep, camels and donkeys.’” Then, we learn in verse 9 exactly what Saul did after he received instructions from the Lord: “But Saul and the army spared Agag and the best of the sheep and cattle, the fat calves and lambs—everything that was good. These they were unwilling to destroy completely, but everything that was despised and weak they totally destroyed.
” To sum it all up, Saul ended up losing his position as King and God told him he would give it to someone else (King David). The Lord regretted that he had ever made Saul King.
Did you see that? In verse 9 Saul destroyed everything EXCEPT “everything that was good”, but the Lord had already given Him specific instructions to destroy it all. Saul even went on to say that he saved these things to sacrifice them to the Lord. In the natural, it seemed like outwardly he (Saul) did the right thing, but the Kingdom was stripped from him because of his disobedience.

Bro and sis; it aint worth it! The Lord has promised us no good thing will He withhold from us. He is looking for someone to believe Him; someone to Love Him. His love for you is strong and He wants you to experience HIS BEST; but this can only happen when we are walking with a pure heart. I have an assignment for you and me; a daily heart check! We can simply ask Him in our time of Prayer: “Lord search my heart and remove the uglies out of my heart. I know it may not feel good, but it’s worth the temporary pain just to be closer to you. I’m not going to make this decision based on what I feel, but on what YOU have said in your word!”

This true story tells us: If we are doing what is right or “good”, but our heart is not right it can lead to disappointment, sadness, defeat, a hardened heart or even spiritual death. That can be a tough pill to swallow BUT maybe that's why so many of us struggle with sin in the same areas for so long; we think that it's just something outward but our heart is really the area we need to be purified. So, if you have been doing what God has told you to do in certain area's of your life PRAISE GOD! Let's just make sure that our heart motive is pure <3.

The Spirit of Bitterness (short recording)

Hola Familia!

I pray that all is well with you and your family and that you are Hotly Pursuing Jesus! He is the way. This is a short 16 minute recording on Bitterness and the dangers of it. This is something that the enemy uses to divide us and make us ineffective. I want to encourage you, as I encourage others that God wants us to confess ALL to Him! He looks at the heart. Time is up for sweeping things under the rug, we have to let Him DEAL with it. THEN we can be the worshipers that John 4:23-24 talks about.

Listen hear:



Love you all, but He loves you even more :-)

Lynnea